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When Jesus asked about the bedroom, I thought about daddy not eating for the past few days. He had my attention. At that point, he told me that if I died then, I would change my father's life. Reiterating what we had talked of on the previous occasion, Jesus repeated that he would take me with him if I really didn't want to go through with my life this time.
In my little mind, I was trying to understand how it would make a difference to my father. In essence, I would be going back home with Jesus. His religion taught that the definitive good was to go to heaven to be with God. My father should have been happy for me because I was achieving his religion's ultimate goal.
Even as a child, I knew that it was not my right to change the direction of another person's life. Torn between the fact that I wanted to go with Jesus, but I didn't want to change the path my father had chosen, I was in a dilemma.
Though I did not want to be ridiculed for my beliefs, I told Jesus I would stay. Even at six years old, I felt sure that I had been ridiculed and died in prior lives for my beliefs. In this life my thought was that I did not want to go through those times again.
Looking back I realize that Jesus spoke with me as adult-to-adult rather than adult to a six-year-old.
Jesus then told me that if I stayed, I would be very ill. He told me to remember that I would not be permanently damaged and would come out of this illness as if nothing had happened. Three days later, I was rushed to the hospital and was found to have one of the first cases of polio.
I had taken the vaccination the day after Jesus had talked with me about the illness. My father did not want me to have that vaccination but my mother did. To this day my father still gets very upset for allowing my mother to talk him into my having that vaccination.
According to my father, he thought that in giving me the vaccine, I would contract the disease. He had a psychic revelation to this effect and was frightened. For him, it was a test of faith. Daddy thought that God did not want me to have
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